kabar_nge's Xanga

In loving memory of my beloved cousin brother

Fri, 10 Jul 2009 17:15:25 GMT

I wish I told you how much you meant to me ...

I wish I spent more time to listen to the problems that you wanted to let out but couldn't let them out

I wish I was at least there for you when you were in need

Most of all .... I wish you were still alive :(

We were friends, brother and sister, we cared for each other

I had so many ideas of how I wanted to spent time to listen to you and help you out of your troubles but couldn't do them as I had my own problems to deal with

I never regret having a cousin brother like you and you'll always be remembered

You were the person with a good heart, protective about your loving brothers and sisters ....

I am going to miss you sooooooo muchhhhhhhh

Don't Say "WHAT" To Me

Sun, 24 May 2009 09:23:07 GMT

GRRR .. I really hate it when people say the word just "WHAT" to me. "what is it?", "what's the matter?", "what's up?" say anything else but "What".

Can't stand it.

I found it really rude and offensive.

I am blogging from work right now coz I can't bear it in my mind.

I need to let it out.

19/02/2009

Sat, 16 May 2009 15:47:28 GMT

It's the day we tied the knot to be together.

To be the better half of each other.

To love and respect each other forever.

I will always remember the day he makes me tears with JOY.

The look in his eyes filled with tears when we exchanged the vows.

It's the day that I've been living & waiting for .... that's the Feburary 19th 2009.

I LOVE YOU

How Far Can You Really Push A Person

Sat, 16 May 2009 15:15:48 GMT

Try .......... Try ........ Try ........ & .... Keep On Trying.

Doesn't matter how hard you try .... they don't appreciate it ....

Doesn't matter how much you prove yourself to them ..... they don't trust you.

Just keep on pushing and one day .. you'll hear the things that you wish you never heard it .... regret the things you said ... & ... feel useless for the future you did not plan and have no control over it ..... GRRRR

The dreams that felt real

Mon, 08 Dec 2008 04:44:39 GMT

It's been a while since I last updated my blog.

The only thing that reminds me to update the blog today is coz I had the weirdest dream last night.

Have you ever had those dreams that whatever you do in your dream, it felt like it's really happening.

The dream I had was really strange. It was so wonderful and real that I didn't want to get up.

I was afraid that if I get up, I might lose those feeling.

This is the second time I had this dream ................ .................. ..................

Really weird but secretly, I hoped it was real.

Happy Birthday to My BRO

Sat, 20 Sep 2008 07:59:48 GMT

It was my bro's birthday on 19th of Sept.

We don't talk anymore but he's still in my heart.

As much as he hates me now, I still think of him.

I hope he's having a great day.

Sometimes, loving someone so extreme can make a person to hate that someone sooo bitterly.

You are still with me ... wherever I am or wherever you are.

Happy Birthday, Ko Myo xox ....

Thursday, September 18, 2008

Thu, 18 Sep 2008 03:47:38 GMT

HaPpY BiRtHdAy To My DeArEsT LiL SiS

HoPe ShE iS HaViNg A WoNdErFuL DaY WiTh HeR FrIeNds , FaMiLy ExCePt ThE TwO BiG SiStErS.

ThInKiNg Of YoU On YoUr SpEcIaL DaY.

Happy Birthday Lucy

Thu, 11 Sep 2008 06:27:02 GMT

Today is one of my uni friends birthday. She's turning 30 ??????????

Ooopsssssss .. hmmm ...<I just revealed her age> oops .......

Anyway, I wished her happy birthday this morning as soon as I woke up but she hasn't got back to me yet. Perhaps she's at work cleaning patients bum or washing a patient. hehe

hmm .. oh .. just realized that she doesn't work on the ward, she works in theatre. hmmm perhaps, she's flirting with a handsome surgeon behind her surgical masks and gowns.

Well, whatever you are doing, I hope you are having an awesome day.

Again, Happy Birthday, Lucy.

Thursday, September 11, 2008

Thu, 11 Sep 2008 06:13:45 GMT

Today is my day off .. as much as I love having a day off from work, I hate to have too much time to sit and think.

Coz it gives me more time to think about the things that I pretend not to think, then makes me unhappy and moody. Lately, I'd been thinking a lot of things so deeply.

I read a friend's xanga blog and read a couple of things that I should take notice.

It says " Don't expect your partner to fulfil all your emotional needs " which is true.I think I have too high expectations from him. I should think realistically and give him a chance to grow.

I am also quite picky with my friendship. I have so many work mates but they are my casual friends. I really can't seem to let them be as close as my high school friends.

Thursday, September 04, 2008

Thu, 04 Sep 2008 15:37:28 GMT

JUST ANOTHER SLEEPLESS NIGHT .. I HATE THIS

WHY IS IT HAPPENING?????

YOU CAN'T HEAR WHAT MY HEART IS SAYING ...